14092009 - something that is somehow significance to me & hopefully to you. 

it reminds me how much a person can give for love ones.

it reminds how stupid a person can be to sacrifice for love ones.

it shows how one is willing to risk life just for love ones.

it reminds me how someone gives out all to make love ones happy.

it reminds how a person can be so patiently waiting.

lost something again? what?

i don't know why and why i would say, feel this. i'm sorry if i've been really cold towards you but i just can't help it. till now i just, its unacceptable. i can't bear the speed you change, i can't take it how fast you got over something that you've earn so hard, i can't accept all you feel was confuse. all these thoughts suddenly came to me. you are weird. one minute you can be so moody and the next minute you can be so cheerful as if nothing happen. you can give me a 'haiz sigh aihh sad', then the next minute 'haha hehe wakaka'. one minute you could say you love only one, and the next minute you're confuse. 

i just hope that history won't start all over again. even if its happens, i don't think i can be there again like i was for the past few times. not this one, especially not when i actually help you started this time. i feel weird.

i'm not judging you or anything but i just feel that way today afternoon. i was hoping you would answer my question, YES or NO but you didn't. instead you gave me replies bout your food & stuff. you've been really secretive to me & i don't like it. you've been mia-ing from us, fine. a msg saying you're missing us... i don't know how sincere is that? just as we thought, it affects us already. your promise, its broken. 

and again and again, i'm saying this : "i miss the old you. the one that is transparent to me."